Former Ravens running back Ray Rice continues to hold out hope that his NFL career isn't over, even as teams needing running back help continue to look elsewhere.
In a sweeping interview on the Dan Patrick Show on Thursday, Rice discussed the domestic violence incident and infamous elevator video that abruptly ended his Ravens career and whether his NFL career can ever be resuscitated.
Rice acknowledged "the worst decision of my life," and said that he went into a "real dark place" after seeing the elevator video for the first time. He said he is bracing for the time when he must discuss the incident with his daughter, Rayven, who is almost 4, and stressed that he wants her to learn about it from Rice and his wife, rather than from the Internet.
"The moment is gonna come when I have to speak to her ... I would hate for her to type in my name and the first thing that comes up is the video," he said.
"In February, we'll be two years removed from the incident," Rice says at one point, "and it still feels like yesterday."
As for resuming his playing career, Rice said, "I do want to play football again ... I'm not ready to give up."
"I want to go back and I want to play for my pride, for my daughter to see me hang up the cleats the right way," he added.
Rice said he had hoped he would get a call earlier in the year or during training camp, but that never happened. And it might not ever again. He is now 28 and almost two full years removed from his last action, a 2013 season in which he had a career-low 3.1 yards a carry.
Although Rice said his agent has had "supportive" conversations with teams, nothing has come of any of it. So Rice sits -- or more accurately works out -- and waits even while realizing that Greg Hardy, with his own domestic violence history, is playing for the Cowboys. Hardy, Rice said, "got a second chance."
It's not there aren't jobs out there; Jonas Gray, Bryce Brown, Kendall Hunter, Pierre Thomas and Montee Ball have all accomplished less than Rice and have been signed recently by teams looking for running back help.
The Ravens lost Justin Forsett to a season-ending broken arm, though Ravens owner Steve Bisciotti had closed the door on Rice returning to the Ravens as a player after he was released.
"As much as I'm hoping for an opportunity as a second chance to play in the game, I'm thankful for my second chance at life," Rice told Patrick. "I'm not incarcerated, and I have a chance to raise my family and be the man that I'm capable of being."